Abundance

"Give, and it will be given to you; a good measure--pressed down, shaken together, and running over--will be poured into your lap"

In 2002, weary from two back to back high risk pregnancies, mothering three children under four, I made a decision. My husband would get a vasectomy. And that, I decided, would be that.

I’m not going to go into all the details, because to this day they cause me no end of embarrassment. Suffice it to say that the dripping water wife of Proverbs 27:15 was me, and I gave my (non Christian) husband no peace until he agreed to my demands.

I made a decision based on my feelings. I made a decision based on a moment. I made a decision without prayer. I made a decision with no pause to consider the future.

And God had mercy.

Today we celebrate the 13th birthday of our first reversal baby. Now, sandwiched in between our first set of biological kiddos and the second set are two who came to us via adoption, so the gap is not noticeable unless you know. But trust me, it’s there. It’s there and I see it, that glaring pause of my own creation. That space caused by my fear.

But God allowed it, and He has redeemed it. This lesson was less about having babies than it might seem; it was about my faith, and my ability to walk sight unseen. It’s come in handy on the journey He has had us on since, and I have no doubt He will continue to remind me of how important it is for me to say yes in obedience even when I can’t imagine what’s around the corner.

The Lord gives to us abundantly in spite of our doubts and our misgivings. He rewards our small steps of faith and is glorified in even the smallest moments where we choose Him over self.

Today, we celebrate our good measure, pressed down. Today we celebrate our Birdie, the blessing we could have missed. Praise God for His lovingkindness in allowing me, a sinner, to be her mother!

In Christ,

Heather